I'm in a blog funk. I feel like a big complainer, so I don't write. So instead, I'm going to use a blog prompt tonight. If it leads to complaining... well then it's justified. :)
Right now, I feel....
Unsettled. You all know that we moved 1100 miles from Texas to North Caroline back in late July. And I haven't yet felt settled in here. I like it well enough, but it's just not home. And I don't know if it will be. We had already been in a place that didn't feel like home for about 16 months before the big move, so that's quite a while to be experiencing this feeling.
Of course, we've still got the monster house in Texas on the market. The mortgage + rent payment will always make you feel like you've got a monkey on your back. So we're renting to keep our living expenses down. The last time I lived in a rental was back in 200-2001, and it was for a finite amount of time (while we had a new house built) - so I'm not even sure that counts. If you go back to the time before that, it was 1997 and I was pregnant with Cameron when we last rented. I haven't put much on the walls or hung any curtains in our townhouse. I don't feel like taking pictures of it to show to anybody. It's just not ours. Not that we're itching to buy here - because it doesn't feel like home yet.
Then there's the school issue. The kids have already switched schools twice - from Austin to Rockwall and from Rockwall to Cary. They have really done well with it, but that doesn't mean that I'm ready to do it again. But there is a new school board in place, and they are going to make some significant changes - and that's going to mean that Logan and Luke will almost certainly go to a different school next year, even if we stay in the townhouse. And that school will most likely be a year-round school. Blech. So we can stay here for the different school, or we can look into moving
again to keep them in the same place. I'll take neither, please.
So I'm pretty bummed and feeling uncertain about a lot. But I've got some things that I can look forward to (trip to London, 20th reunion), and that's getting me through each day.